DARK
Sorry if I haven't responded to your emails, this week was super hard. It was hard, and then I found out that one of my friends from back home unexpectedly passed away. I wasn't insanely close with him, but enough to where it hurts. It hurts for me, but I also hurt for those who were way closer to him than I was. I can't stop thinking about funny moments, and looking back at the picture of us hugging in the airport before I left for my mission. It has honestly made my motivation for mission work so low. I had my interview with President and Sister Scott, and told them I wanted to go home. I swear whenever things start getting good again another bad thing happens. I told them that it's only been three months and my family moved to Texas, I missed my brother's wedding, some other stuff that is happening, and now this, and I just don't know how much more I can miss. I know my pride won’t let me go home early. So it won't be my decision if it does happen, but I so badly wanted to be home. I have a ton of respect for President and Sister Scott. A ton of people on the mission have issues with them because they don't get what they want for transfers, but I have so much love for them. They were able to not only give me exactly what I was wanting to hear, but also a lot of what I needed to hear. It is still really hard, and I think it will be for the rest of the mission honestly, but I know I need to stay. If not for anyone else, then for me.
LIGHT
As you can probably guess, not much work got done, but after applying some of what they told me, some light started to shine. I felt the spirit so strong in a lesson after not being able to feel it in weeks. We also had some really good lessons after that, and I was able to find more confidence to participate. Of course, like I said before, when things start looking good something bad happens, even on a smaller scale. On our way to an investigators house it was dark, and I stepped almost knee deep into some mud, which almost certainly had poop and pee in it. My shoes came off and I had to reach my arms in to get them, which was so hard to do. So that tested my patience, having to walk 45 minutes home with that, and then clean it all. The next day though was Sunday. We got out extra early and went to some investigators house to see if they could come to church. We went to Tatay Alfredo's 
house, and it was locked and everyone said lakaw siya. I looked at Llanos and jokingly said, "Hopefully to church.” We walk into church, and there he is, talking to another tatay. Then in the elders quorum a member pulled me out, and when I turned the corner, I saw Tatay Joseph, another one of our investigators, drenched in sweat. Apparently he accidently passed the church and just kept on walking, so he missed Sacrament meeting. These moments were just some light in these seemingly dark days. Also SM mall is back open, which is a huge light.
CONCLUSION
Please continue to pray for me. I really need it. And please please pray for my friends and my friend's family who need it more than I do. For those that are wondering, Elder Llanos and I's relationship has grown a ton. Thanks to everyone who gave me advice, it really has helped.
Blessed,
Elder Lewis
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